pae.HATE is easy. LOVE takes courage.

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2009-03-29T19:31:00.000+08:00

Hi guys. I know it's been a while but since you're here it must mean you're looking for something you can't find elsewhere. :) Sorry, I left Blogger a long time ago and I am now thought-ing in my Multiply. The link is on the left panel of my blog. There. :) I HAVE BEEN TRYING DESPERATELY to edit my template to reflect the changes in my life. Well, it has been in vain because the template is STUCK. Oh well. :)

2007-09-14T22:59:00.000+08:00

WHAT WOULD i BE WiTHOUT YOU?
i miss you :(

2007-09-08T19:40:00.000+08:00

hello :] CAMP won 2nd place last night for the cultural competition, dance category. it's one of the biggest inter-collegiate events during the academic year. im supposed to be glad but really, im not. haha. champion kasi kame last year eh kaya syempre, many are expecting that we'll get it this year. haha. "we" ako ng 'we" parang talagang kasale noh? haha. i guess you know by now that i am a frustrated dancer && i am still hoping that i will get to shake my booty up there with rest of them dansuz! ;) btw, the theme were these children who have made an impact on the world, like the Children of Fatima, Anastacia, Nadia(the gymnast whose last name i can't remember) and many more. CAMP's was Shirley Temple and last night was probably my proudest CAMPer moment yet. HAHA. in g-ann's famous line, "eye-popping!" hehe :] i can't believe that despite the toxicity of ALL the courses under my college, there were still these students who took time off their anatomy, chemistry, microbiology whatsoever to make our college proud. hehe :)

i got my grade in Micro and THOUGH I WAS EXPECTING IT, iba parin pag pinakita sayo. huhu. i'm writing all about it in my multiply blog. hehe. which btw, has undergone a template change after a long time of being just pink and yellow. i got the new skin from customizedthemes just like everyone else but if i had my way, i want to make my own. but i can't figure out how the hell the CSS thing works in multiply. duh.

i hope i did better in my midterms than in my prelims. especially in micro!!! btw, we have no PE today which i miss coz of my *ehem* strikes in bowling. haha. strikeSSSSS yan boi, with an S. LOL. thinking of bowling made me think of my 2nd sem PE which is team sports, which are BASKETBALL & VOLLEYBALL. heler? i'll hurdle a long physics exam and memorize all the official compunds of anything official that has something official (haha) than play those games. i can imagine my department head saying, "pae, wala ka ng scholarship. bagsak kasi ung PE mo ehh." and me launching into tears going, "nooooooo..." ung parang pag nahuhulog sa cliff ung bida sa movie. HAHA.

buy :]

2007-08-31T17:45:00.000+08:00

screw the odds.
i believe in u. in me. && in this love that's worth fighting for.

Garfield is sooo cute =]

2007-08-26T17:13:00.000+08:00

*happy slip typical teen voice*

Heeeeey ;) So I'm like 'totely bored, like 'totely i dunno.. bored? But I like, need to studeh and stuff. I have like so much stuff to do for like, skewl. But I'm not doing them coz I'm like logged on here and on Multiply, like forever. HAHA =]

enough of ishtupidity.

di kita bate. kase kaw na nga linalambing, ayaw mu pa. HMPH. Buuuuud ka! >=[

♥HAHA. juss kiddin' bby. <3 u! =*

i am sooo unproductive nowadays. tss. first, i go telling myself that i will resolve to finish memorizing my official compounds bla, bla, bla. what does pae do instead? she goes gallivanting into the night. nooo, something tamer. but something more or less like that. HAHA. 'tis fun to juss let things 'come what may'. BUT as ghary has said in his multiply blog, "hindi pwede ang come what may!!!" Tama ka ghary, hindi nga. Magbabayad na ako sa aking hindi pag-aaral next week sa midterms. =]] (ang saya pa noh? weird.)

Hmm. i already printed my Protozoa handout in Pharm Micro. "cut" my handouts for Phar Chem & Public Health.. && um... umm.. went out, went OL, logged into Multiply, blogged here, slept,went to church,watched tv, went OL again, logged into Multiply, still logged into Multiply and blogged here. HAHA. basically, nothing academic since the ONLY things in the list that concern school will NOT help me pass unless i actually remember their contents. (i hope you guys got what i meant. haha)

looksee.. found it buried in my hard drive. HAHA. jessica sent it to me last march ata ;) click it for a larger image =]

Giddy

2007-08-26T00:02:00.000+08:00

Iyhhh. Anung English ng kinikilig?? Giddy ba?? HEHE. Ung verb.

Ahh basta, kinikilig akoooooo!!! HAHAHA =]

We'll hide away under my sheet all right?? ;)

Stick Around

2007-08-23T20:15:00.000+08:00

if you haven't noticed, i changed my blog music but this time i just embedded a song from imeem coz i don't have limewire anymore (virus-prone) and i can't upload music using iwebmusic. enough of that. im explaining coz i know panira ng template yung embedded thingey sa sidebar ko :P

so why did i change the song? me && april were standing in front of jollibee kanina, umbrella in hand and my shoes all wet coz the rain was sooo strong. so while waiting for my dad to fetch me, he asked me what song i liked for now. sabi ko 'save me by josh verdes'. hehe =] so he told me to check out this song & so i did :) i'm usually a "lyrics" person coz i think i don't have a melodious(?) bone in my body. haha. && this one really rocked my socks off. haha. it's cheesy in all the right places pero still makes me go, "awwwwww..." :)

the lines that are in bold are the lines that i like best.

Stick Around
Azure

How many times do I daydream
About making love to you
I'll take you to a special place
Where it's only me and you
I'll put away all your troubles
On the other side of the world
And wrap my arms around you, hon
And tell you you're my girl
(So let's go sail away in the night)
And we'll go far away from here
(Tell you that's where our love is right)
Can I take you to my world?

Chorus
Whenever you're sad
Whenever you're crying
I'll be the one who wipes away your tears
Whenever you're cold
Whenever you need me
I'll be the one who runs to you
Give you my love
Well you know how much I love you
So you better not let me down
I'm not asking for too much
Baby, just stick around

A quiet day in the country
Or a rainy night in my room
We'll hide away under my sheet
If the morning comes too soon
An afternoon in your eyes
Or a lifetime in your heart
Forever just ain't long enough
But at least it's a good start
(Falling deeper in love with you)
Will you be there to catch me girl?
(I hope your falling deep with me too)
Can I keep you in my world?

Chorus

Forever, forever
Ooh.. would you come on baby
(let's go sail away in the night)
And we'll go far away from here
(Tell you that's where our love is right)
Ooh..

Cause, whenever you're sad
Whenever you're crying
I'll be the one who wipes away your tears
Whenever you call me
Whenever you need me
I'm gonna be right there and give you my love
Yeah, and you know how much I love you
So you better not let me down
I'm not asking for too much, baby
Just stick around
Forever, forever

♥ && just so you know, i will stick around :) ♥

ROFL

2007-08-22T17:57:00.000+08:00

ooh lookey i'm blogging for three straight days now. haha. we did not have an exam in ANY of the subjects i studied for last night. which sucks. i mean, c'mon, why delay physics any further if i know i'm gonna fail it anyway? haha. it's not as if you can memorize the answers right? in health ethics, mam dean forgot about our quiz today for the nth time. i don't know if accidentally or purposedly. but i guess that part's good. but it will be kinda' hard for us since we'll be studying five pages of the official compounds of pharmaceutical aids and necessities. before you start telling me how much of a whiner i am, i suggest you get your butt over here so you'll see the five pages LANG of blahs we have to cram into our head. && we have a quiz in ICT (another subject i do NOT see having any IMPORTANT and SIGNIFICANT relevance in my future profession) that's long as well. it's JUST ict but there are still facts that should ALSO be memorized. guh-reat. more memorization. **i wonder if people can get brain cancer from info-overload. hmm**

i dunno what time will appear when i publish this post but right now it's 9:02pm coz there was a stupid brownout for God-knows-how-long. ganadong-ganado na pamo akong mag-type kanina. HAHA. my lenses are drying; i better lubricate them. yech. Lol.

it struck me a while ago, "what if the world wide web suddenly vanished or erased or destroyed?" haha. eveyrthing. from Blogger to Multiply to the ubiquitous Friendster. Nyahaha =] honestly? everything EXCEPT paelegolas.BLOGSPOT.com =] (selfish. haha)

so really? you can spell?? HAHA. that's a laugh and a half. =D

2007-08-21T23:28:00.000+08:00

i'm never gonna be gorgeous or hott am i? nahhh. like duh. haha. sooo, ill juss stick to doing what i do best: crying over cheesy feel-good movies, rambling incoherent babblings here or in my multiply, laughing like a crazy kid, sleeping & not doing anything, stuffing my face with food that is neither nutritious nor beneficial for my dreams of gaining weight, nagging people to do silly stuff with me, burning the midnight oil SURFING the net(not studying), going back to national bookstore everytime im at the mall just so i can "fantasize" reading HP7, dropping my phone as if i have lotsa' money to buy a new one, messing my hair MORE when all i really want is for it to look presentable for my guy, failing in physics even if all i did during the weekend was solve rotational equilibrium problems, saying tactless things even if i didn't mean to :(, logging into multiply just to check for updates even if i just logged out,like, 20 mins. ago, taking a picture of myself while studying just to see if brainy&nerdy girls can be attractive (unfortunately proven otherwise).

i guess i've said more than what i really intended to say about myself. so yes, still stick-thin, gorgeous? nope, u kidding? =p hott? TSSS. up there (revert your eyes to previous paragraph) are just a fraction of the gazillion ways i can say about myself. i run out of words sometimes but, oh boy, when i CAN, i can talk or write for like forever. haha (ow-Ey). so this turned out to be the "about me" portion i never want to see in my accounts ever but whatever.

Compromise

2007-08-20T13:38:00.000+08:00

"You should not be the one doing all the bending. COMPROMISE is a two-way street."

I agree =]

I was supposed to post something yesterday but I got lazy and realized I needed to wash my hair pa and all. Belated happy birthday caveman aika! we had fun. =] swear. i missed the "high-school crowd" && i found pictures in my computer from high-school that I might just post in Multiply. =] (Nvm if we look bad in them. HAHA)

The sun is shining again and although that means no more suspension of classes due to bagyos, I guess that's better for A LOT of people in other places who are greatly affected by it. Kawawa naman sila right? So I guess sleep has to be compromised muna for the safety of others whose houses are knee-deep in flood water.

I'm wondering bakit before and dami kong nasasabi dito? Have I lost "THE" passion? Ok, corny. Haiyh.

P.S. I hope the Augustine people can get together ulit some other time. =]

2007-08-10T22:09:00.000+08:00

Huhu. I feel so sorry for my blogspot && guys who still visit here despite the lack of updates (hehe), THANK U SOOO MUCH. argh. bakit kasi you can't have a properly functioning network here eh. Hehe. Ung parang multiply. Tapos dito you can't even screen who views your stuff. Although I can't do that in Multiply as well even if I can coz then, April won't be able to see our pictures. Hehe.

So, what's been happening? Two days of having no classes coz of the two bagyos and I'm really glad. I sooo need to catch up on sleep. I woke up at 11 on BOTH days. I found out that if I wake up AFTER lunch, it'll just give me a bad headache and I'll be badtrip for the whole day. So, 11 is fine. It's a big improvement from the usual 5:30 or 6. Argh. So what's so bad about my two-day vacation? Vacation, kahit weekends lang, bring out more of my procrastinating habits. I have all the time in the world to study and memorize or just make myself productive and yet I spend the day in front of the computer, logged into Multiply or watching videos from Happy Slip. Hehe. OR when my eyes get strained, I go to the kitchen and stuff my face with kalamay ube. Haha. To no avail, mind you, I'm still stick-thin. And my weight? Gawd, don't even ask. My mom was shocked when I told her my "latest" weight. Papa said I can't take any appetite enhancers ooz may side effect daw sila na nakakaantok. And for a Pharmacy student like ME, tsk! i can't afford to sleep. SLEEPING HAS BECOME A LUXURY. Hehe.

I have P.E. tomorrow so I need to sleep now. Oh btw, I'm NOT passing any of my games. Poor me. Boohoo =[

♥Oh yeah,
I dedicate this entry to the people whose name are in my CBox. Hehe. Ü

2007-07-22T21:14:00.000+08:00

all of a sudden i wish somebody will write something for me. =[ actually, just like how rizal immortalized his lady love leonora in one of his novels; or something to that effect. it doesn't need to be a novel or some high-end Philosophy paper with all the big words. for me, it just has to nice and real. oh, and sweet. *sniff*

*so sue me for my example. i couldn't think of anything else.

i have to run along and study for Physics now. i am failing. oooh, yes I AM.

2007-07-21T16:04:00.000+08:00

juss to pass off time. ho-humm =]

1.Call me - PAE
2. What color of pants are you wearing right now? - pink shorts
3. What Are You Listening To Right Now? - the irritating sound of the e-fan.
4. What Was The Last Thing You Ate? - banana cake
5. Do You Believe In Karma? - ~~somewhat~~. nah, i don't think so
6. If You Were A Crayon, what color would you be?- PINK
7. How Is The Weather Right Now?- i dunno. ask it. haha
8. Last Person You Talked To On The Phone? - papa
9. Do You Like The Person Who Sent You This? - i juss copied it from another blog
10. How Are You Today? - SLEEPY
11. Favorite Drink? - Iced tea
12. Favorite Alcoholic Drink? - N/A
13. Favorite Sports - say what?? LOL
14. Hair Color? - black
15. Eye Color? - black
16. Favorite Band? - eagles! yea. haha
17. Favorite Actor & Actress? - no one in particular
18. Favorite Months?- APRIL! =]
19. Favorite Food?- sinigang, california maki. yey.
20. Last Movie You Watched? - Harry Potter & the Order of the Phoenix
21. Favorite Day of the Year? - huh?
23. What Was Your Favorite Toy As A Child? - Barney
24. Summer or Winter?- kelan pa nagka-winter dito hah??
25. Hugs Or Kisses? - both? =]
26. Chocolate Or Vanilla? - CHOCOLATE
27. What Is Under Your Bed? - dust bunnies
28. Friend You Have Had The Longest? - Joe. since prep. hehe
29. What Did You Do Yesterday? - suphur HARD exam sa Micro-Para, went home && slept for 6 hours to make up for lost sleep then goofed around with april ;)
30. Favorite Smells?- vanilla
31. Who Inspires You? - God, Family, Ajie
32. What Are You Afraid Of? - nothing. i am FEARLESS. haha. hmm, failure, i guess.
33. Plain, Buttered Or Salted Popcorn? - cheese! :)
34. favorite flower? - any flower for as long as it's from april. yey =]
35. Number Of Keys On Your Key Ring? - FOUR.
36. Favorite Days Of The Week? - Friday!

**********

1. 1st time you tried smoking:-- NEVER
2. 1st alcoholic drink you had:-- BEER. juss a sip from my cousin's.
3. 1st time you entered a bar:-- uhm, have i?? hehe
4. 1st award you received:-- Prettiest Pre-schooler. HAHAHA
5. 1st hero:-- Barbie. Life in plastic, it's fantastic! haha
6. 1st time you were sent to the principal for disciplinary actions:-- OMG. the night before the graduation exercises during the grad ball. gawd. magga-graduate nalang nga dun pa na-office. haha. pero it wasn't for disciplinary action naman =p
7. 1st goal you accomplished:-- graduate in high-school? haha
8. 1st crush?-- Haha.
9. 1st person whom you gave flowers:-- no one.
10.1st friend:-- Dunno.
11.1st kiss:-- Mumsie
12. 1st record you bought:-- huh?
13. 1st song you sang infront of many people:--it was something like, "ito ang araw kagandahang asal bla,bla,bla". when i was in Prep. haha
14. first musical instrument you learned to play:-- piano
15. 1st local&foreign concert you watched:-- omg. wala pa ata. poor me. HUHU. oh wait! Orange & Lemons lang ata. tapos free pa =p
16. 1st celebrity you saw in person:-- Donita Rose. swear. haha. sa Duty Free
17. 1st TV show you really liked:-- Sesame Street of course! lol
18.1st buk u bought:-- Sweet Valley? can't remember.
19. 1st sport you played:-- haler.
20. 1st sleepover:-- lola's house. always and forever. haha
21. 1st terrible fight:-- ewan.
22. 1st inaanak (first godchild?):-- WALA thank goodness. ayaw ko pa. haha
23. 1st debut (filipino girly 18th bday party)party you attended:-- nung 4th year ako. Ate Joy's party. Hawaiian theme.
24. 1st bestfriend/s-- Joanna Camille. hehe
25. 1st wedding you attended:-- distant relative whom i can't remember. FLOWER ~~VASE~~ GIRL ako. haha
26. 1st person who greeted you on your lastbday:-- nakalimutan ko na. it wasn't april coz he was out of the country. hehe
27. 1st friend in friendster:-- NEVER HAD A FRIENDSTER
28. 1st cellphone:-- 5110. kewl =p
29. 1st cellphone ringtone:-- Standard. haha
30. 1st collection:-- Hello Kitty josko.
31. 1st tym u saw a ghost?-- NEVER
32. 1st rollercoaster ride?-- Grade 5 sa Sapce Shuttle =]
33. 1st ambition:-- SCIENTIST. so kick-ass. haha.
34.1st thing u will buy w/ ur 1st salary?-- ill give it to my parents first. awwww. hehe =]

2007-07-14T21:54:00.000+08:00

this is my first blog entry for july (a big duh there) and i think a lot has happened that one entry won't make up for it all. and i don't think i remember much either. haha =]

i was surfing the net while looking for sources for our Phil Lit report and a quote caught my eye. "Life is simple. You make choices & don't look back." it sounded so... short and succint. it was easily understood and it wasn't very philosophical and "intelligent-sounding." maybe it's coz the meaning gets its essence from its simplicity. it made me think of the things in my life right now. i tend to over-analyze things and therefore make it complicated than it actually is. but im not really sure if i can stop being that way. it is me after all. but i want to change... for the better and juss let things "be." i got into a lot of arguments because of this. there are some nights when i snap myself out of sleepiness and think "why the hell can't i do the right thing or say the right words????" then i realize that the reason for the make-up of my attitude is because i grew up thinking and actually proving that it's the best way out of everything. shooting an equally witty answer has always been the way out for me. i found out (and am constantly STILL finding out for retention) that being all head is actually stupid (irony aside). no bitterness here. im all thanks for what i got. but maybe i need a wee bit more of tweaking. nicer hair? haha. lesser eyabags i guess?lol. kidding aside, a bit more common sense than what i have (i seem to lack A LOT of it) and courage (to say No and to stop crying all the time). wistful thinking. yea.

ok, freeze. i didn't blog juss for this. hehe =]

pae will now huff &&amp; puff && blow your houses down. haha =]

bowling♥
we had three games for our PE class already, which is, sad to say, bowling. being so poor at ANY physical activity requiring strength, speed, stamina and the like (and all the other fundamental stuff), i managed to fail two out of those three games. yey for pae. shit. i can accept losing a scholarship coz of chemistry or physics (which is now officially the hell subject) but NOT, i repeat in a firm and (don't worry) calm voice, i will NOT lose it to P.E.!!! *loses poise* much less to bowling. gawd. who actually fails bowling??? oh yea, ME!

transformers♥
best movie evuuur for me =] of course along withe LOTR and if only :) yea, this turned out to be the movie for me. i wasn't even planning to watch it. i mean, hello? cars, tanks and jets that morph into superbots? that isn't actually my type. when my uncle told me to watch out for it, i stifled a yawn and tried to conceal my lack of interest. but i am soooo glad i watched it. two times, mind you. haha. and i can say that it's better than harry potter! which is by the way...

harry potter♥
boring. i loved the books and i hate the fact that the movie does NOT give justice to the book. it had this very short 'medyo exciting' scene near the end at the Department of Mysteries between the Death Eaters and Harry's friends and the one between Dumbledore and Voldemort. aside from that, wala na. good thing i didn't expect much coz i knew they really cut the potter movies short. that can't be avoided of course. so ill juss stick with the books. hehe =]

prelim♥
exams next week that i have to study really hard for coz, um, let's juss say i'm not myself lately. hehe =] all-nighters for phar chem! those errr elements *frowns*

california maki♥
wala lang. naisingit lang. haha. i am craving for it. yumm *drools* =]
Question: Anu magiging itsura ng anak ko if ipinaglihi ko siya sa california maki? haha.

sophomore♥
ok. delayed. haha. i love not being the freshman: the mindlessly-aiming child from somewhere. haha =] i love having the nameplate that they don't! and i love not having the cf, filipino and english books that ALL first year students have (the ultimate indicator) haha.

isang araw sa CAMP corridor:
pae: yey. 2nd year na tayo! malapit na tayo magtapos!
*everybody stares. the everybody as i remember are ces, joan, edz, mia, eloisa and abby*
*then laughs*
pae:baket? be positive! =]

still rockin' despite the toxicity of the course. =]
pae, ces, gia, cath, norvic, danie.
more pictures in cesc's multiply :)

so. i might have forgotten other stuff. but one thing's for sure, whatever happened (read:happenings) they are my life choices. i juss hope there's no looking back =]

2007-06-29T18:38:00.000+08:00

please take time to read. thank you.

dear readers (asa),

i doubt if anybody is going to read this on time, much more the person i dedicate this post to. everybody's been flocking to Multiply (myself included) but i don't think i'll be transferring my blog there anytime soon. which means i might do so, but NOT in the near future. for people who have been reading my blog since its humble beginning (i.e. the people in the sidebar), you've seen posts, pictures && even sidebar content of me and april. and it is not new to you, readers, how i feel about him. he doesn't visit my blog very often and sometimes he only does so if i tell him i wrote about him or if i posted our pictures. so this isn't a post that is meant to evoke feelings of pity from you, neither of him. i guess if he reads this, it means that he is meant to read this post; even without me telling him that i wrote something in my blog about him today. the people who read this blog are mostly just my friends. i don't really leave my url around other blogs of people i don't know personally. and you, my friends, have an idea of how i love him while others know (and are a witness) how MUCH i love him. never have i committed myself to anyone besides him. and yes, we are not an official couple- no monthsary whatsoever and he is not a boyfriend neither am i a girlfriend. but i care for him deeply- much more than any formal commitment or monthsary can ever take us or can ever make me feel this way about a person. i am committed to him and him only. we have the inevitable fights and most especially the moments when we are tempted to give it all up. but that is something i don't think i can do (read:give up) unless some radically impossible change in the cosmos happens and i forget of how much he means to me. why am i writing about this? because i want people to know and READ in writing my feelings. i am not ashamed of what i feel, contrary to what i am often told. and i cannot "whisper" into a microphone i love him in front of thousands of people anytime soon so i thought of the next best thing- my blog. it is public. it is real. it does exist. so if any of you who know me & know april as well, if by any chance you see him or you get to talk to him or whatever, please tell him I LOVE HIM VERY MUCH. you don't need to tell him about this entry, all you have to say is you know i love him. . . with my life :')

2007-06-23T22:42:00.000+08:00

landon: do you love me?
jamie: hmm(nods) :)
landon: will you do something for me then?
jamie: anything.
landon: will you marry me?

pae: *cries* =')

"... with more love than most people experience in a lifetime."

2007-06-21T22:26:00.000+08:00

sometimes i feel that you are tired of what i say; that what i'm saying is no longer new for you and there is no need to hear it- sawa ka na. i'm sorry to know that but even if you plug cotton into your ears && shut me out completely, you will never fail to hear me. no, i am not just another frustrated writer who writes OUT her feelings. i love you && for me, nothing within my control will change that. i am sorry for some of the things that i have caused--the petty arguments; the tampuhans ika nga. i am sincere, i hope you still believe that. and you STILL don't know, even if i tell you sometimes, HOW HAPPY i am when you tell me you love me. what's more is, i am happy when you tell me that after a happy day, but i am HAPPIER (beyond any range of description) when you tell me you STILL love me after a big fight. it matters so MUCH to me, to know that you're still there (again, the "MUCH" in that sentence is beyond any apt & realistic range of description). it still makes me sad that we have to go through those fights but we are always better after fights or arguments. right?:)

i love you. i always have.

2007-06-17T22:21:00.000+08:00

my baby drew this on my palm :) ako daw yan.

this morning after church :)

i love, heart, <3 that face =]

rawr. the rest of our vain-ness in my MULTIPLY.
*oh click niyo mga anak :P*

oh, oh && happy father's day to our papa-slash-poopie :) ahaha :D larv u ♥

2007-06-13T20:46:00.000+08:00

emo-ish :)

when somebody tells you that his one wish at night before he closes his eyes is that you still be with him when he opens his eyes up until the last time he closes them, you know that love? as complicated as it seems, is worth ALL the pain.

baby, you made me cry :') it's very sweet- sana kasma kita pagdilat ng mata ko, hanggang sa huling pagsara nito. aww. i'll never forget what you said. also, remember that there are people who love you unconditionally so don't ever feel worthless. i know of two already: the Big Guy up there && one little missy right here :) iloveyou ♥ hold on, ok? :)

2007-06-11T20:06:00.000+08:00

i feel so guilty coz ive been neglecting my blogspot but i've been logged in my multiply EVERYDAY. this is where i belong. this is my cradle of thoughts. this is where i first poured out my sentiments publicly. . .

ahehe. ang drama eh, noh? :P

sooo..i had my internship for 6 days already. approximately 40 hours na since during my first day, half-day lang ako dahil enrollment namen. it was okey. the people are nice naman; the pharmacist is nice as well. sa manson dau nga pala ako; ung malapit sa mcdo. I ATE MCDONALD'S FOR LUNCH everyday. syet. i don't ever wanna see that clown's face for a month or sooo. napurga ata ako sa french fries T_T anywayssss, they gave me light loads, especially when they found out FIRST YEAR palang ako. haler? mukha ba kong gurang? they had a common reaction, "bakit ang aga niyong nag-iintern?" ako naman, "di ko po alam ehh." when deep inside i wanted to scream, "ASK THE FREAKS WHO REVISED OUR SUCKING CURRICULUM!!!!!!! gawd." nakakainis. instead of enjoying our very short 2-week vacation before we indulge once again into the toxic-ness of our course, the poor pharma students are off in their various "accredited kuno" drugstores numbing their butts off ang waiting for eight hours to pass by. && believe me, eight hours is soooooo long. it's the most bored i ever felt in my life.

me && april watched Mr. Bean's Holiday last saturday although we didn't get to see some parts of it coz i needed to go home na. (boo) it was funny, as expected. haha :D although, i like his series better :)

**i want to sneak off into the night. haha :D labo.**

last sunday, we attended a funeral. a lolo died. my paternal grandmother's eldest brother. gets? it's my first time to attend a funeral. i've been to wakes but never to a burial. it was very sad and very depressing to see people crying and even if you're not very close to the peron who passed away, you can't help shed a few tears too. i dunno if it's because iyakin talaga ko but it made me sad. i guess it's coz i feel for the people who lost somebody very dear to them. naisip ko ren, pano pag ako ung nawalan? so far, the closest relatives i've lost are my cousin (i was seven; he died when he was 18 lang ata) && my maternal grandfather (when i was in first year high school; my grandpa died of cancer). i don't remember crying for my cousin coz i was young and i wasn't very close to him, but i cried when my grandpa died. i know that death is inevitable, and sometimes, that thought scares me.

school's back on wednesday. tsss. kainis.

2007-06-03T18:44:00.000+08:00

it's my dad & mum's anniv today :)) 18 years ♥ awww... haha. wala lang, share :) more years to come pey-rents. halavyu :P

my internship starts tomorrow. i am NOT happy. so NOT.

2007-06-01T20:20:00.000+08:00

alam niyo yung feeling na gusto mong magsalita ng magsalita hanggang magsawa silang kakapakinig sayo?? haha. wala lang :)

i know this is long overdue but we all know that Ms. Japan was crowned Ms. Universe blablabla. it's normal for me to say, "dapat nanalo ung Ms. Philippines." but if you were to compare the latter ONLY to Ms. Japan, Ms. Philippines is far superior. swear! what i mean is, there are other girls far more deserving than Ms. Japan. she's beautiful, yea. && she has extensive dance training and all but she wasn't exactly the best. in fact, i like Ms. Brazil better (1st runner-up) i saw this site on the internet (click HERE) and you can go see && hear for yourself. compare niyo kahit sina Ms. Japan && Philippines lang. in terms of beauty, although there are really a lot of beautiful women, Licaros (Ms. Philippines) is beautiful; very Filipina kumbaga :) basta, click niyo lang ung site if you have time. also, among the top five, Mori's (Ms. Japan) question was a no-brainer. thus, her "winning answer" wasn't exactly panalo for me. hehe. for me lang ha. her question was something like, "what values from your childhood do you consider important..." parang ganun. && even if you haven't learn any shitznit like perseverance blablabla, you could easily think of that. tsss. parang ako yung natalo eh noh?? haha :D

i have this really weird conclusion that Riyo Mori has an affair with Donald Trump kaya ganun. haha :D

so... anyway, we went to the dentist today and 1 HOUR akong nakanga-nga. kamusta naman? haha.

♥happy birthday to our dear, dear Paejie-slash-Maui. yihee. i can't believe it's been a year since my baby first went to our house one stormy, brown-outy night. haha.♥

2007-05-31T22:50:00.000+08:00

happiness=today

"yea, im happy."
"gawd, i AM HAPPY!!!"
"~~happy~~? f*ck, THAT, i'll never be."

take your pick. i want the happiness that doesn't fade away after a day or two; not the kind that's like the rustle of the breeze that is felt a moment in time. there is no happiness that is lasting, that we all know. && with that, we try to go with the one that makes us happy today but can make us miserable tomorrow. but we are human, i dunno if that's the sad part in that, but we ARE, and we enjoy for a fleeting moment && then *poof*, it vanishes.

...and admit it, you sneer and scoff at my tangled words but YOU DO AGREE :)

2007-05-29T19:47:00.000+08:00

i juss found the friendster account that TIMOTHY DE GUZMAN made for me without my permission && it f*cking sucks! argh. (timothy humanda ka saken!) it has a picture and all! i don't know who the hell is stupid enough to believe that BUT what if somebody will?!? hell-ness, i don't have a friendster account!!! Taena, may media box thingey pa (whatever that is) i didn't play it. i'm SURE i won't be liking what i'll see. argh. tapos ung profile ganun pa, it makes me sound like a vain 13-year old obssessed with love songs and spiderman?? haler? yea, i could be vain but my hobbies and interests are more than "lalanjut." PAG NAMAN ANG LECHENG ACCOUNT NA YON HINDI BINURA WITHIN 12 HOURS, quoting Saw 2, "oh yes, there will be blood" hahahahaha :D gagu ka talaga timothy :P

d'ya wanna see it? ayoko eh :P

2007-05-28T21:34:00.000+08:00

my throat hurts. yea, it does. (i feel stupid saying "yea, it does" ewan baket.haha) it hurts yesterday morning but woah, this morning it hurt more and this afternoon after my nap parang every time i swallow may coarse particles akong linulunok. argh. it's like sore throat times two minus the croaking voice. i am NOT very glad about today. it's raining, that's one reason. i'm not very fond of the rain. basta, some people share the feeling, some people don't. although it brought benefits today; april had to stay for a while sa house 'till the rain stops so me and the rain are quits. haha :)

**me && the rain, tama ba?? or the rain && i?? haha. naalala ko si sir john eh. naguluhan tuloy ako.

mood
pissed. tsss.

2007-05-27T22:40:00.000+08:00

ok, so this is quite shallow but ill blog about it anyway. this cracked me up. haha. i was flipping through channels while CSI is on commercial. daddy-di-do-du (tama ba spelling?) ang natsempuhan. ehe. donna (maxene) said in true donna-ish style:

"kanina ko pa nakikita 'to (gingerly touches nadine's 3210 cellphone). this cellphone is like so five years ago pa kaya. pang-museum nalang ata 'to ehh."

haha. i told you it's mababaw. nobody tells you to read my posts anyway. haha. i was laughing so loud nagising ko tuloy si eena :D

tska ang cute niya eh(maxene NOT eena). hehe :)

speaking of cute, ang cute ni Sophia Bush sa "John Tucker Must Die" :)) stupid Chad ;)

ok, ive blabbed longer than i'm supposed to. incoherently, mind you. haha.

2007-05-24T16:12:00.000+08:00

just yesterday i was sulking from the TERRIBLE, DREADFUL, HORRIFIC (pick the worst adjective) news about our school hours and internship and now, despite of the finals in psychology tomorrow THAT I CANNOT SEEM TO UNDERSTAND, i am happy :)) anyway, yesterday, me && ces trashed our course all the way home. haha. i couldn't concentrate on what i was reading and i couldn't remember ANYTHING from my handouts :(

ok. so that ends the lousy part of my day. eto na. last night, nagtext si kua xtian. tinatanong niya if i was home. i said i was and asked why. sabi niya he wanted to drop off the things that april got me from HK coz they met up at the airport in HK before kua xtian went home from singapore. so i said yes. i asked him when he saw april blablabla. at the same time i was waiting for april in YM coz he hasn't replied to any of my offline messages. sabi ko pa nga "buti ka pa nakita mo na siya. hehe" "kelan ba siya uwi? june 5 ata eh." "oo daw. malwat pa." so fast forward. he gave me a call when he was outside our gate and i was there sa gateway waiting for him to come out) he probably figureed i wasn't going out so he stepped out of the car and opened his trunk. he told me to wait coz blablabla. something like he couldn't find what he was supposed to bring. i was like "ok" nakakahiya naman kase. siya pa pinaghatid. hehe. after that, everything was like a dream ♥ i heard music play from his car and i heard april's voice singing :) tapos ayun, lumitaw bigla si april. i was in so much shock namura ko pa siya't pinalo-palo. hehe. (sorry baby) and to think yesterday i was special-mentioning (no such word) him coz i wanted to talk to him. i never thought i'd see him as early as now.

♥ i love you april :) ♥

oh yea, he brought me flowers && that bear (in the picture) *sigh*

so, yes, i am in bliss.

oops, except for the inevitable finals in psych. ugh.

2007-05-23T17:16:00.000+08:00

how come nobody ever warned me about my freakin' course??? *cries*

too busy to explain further

april, i really NEED && WANT to talk to you. huhu ;(

2007-05-21T20:19:00.000+08:00

yey. new template. got sick of all the purty backgrounds && i couldn't find anything i like kaya white nalang =))

my mom && sister are home na. they miss me, i can tell. ahaha. LOL. eena has so many kwento & she kept on saying na sana me and my dad stayed longer so we could've seen this and that, bla, bla, bla. ehe :)

*i can imagine ces reacting sa background. hehe*

it's exam week. finals, actually. it's supposed to be for one day only since we only have three subjects this summer but you i guess even our profs are eager to get out of school. so some of them are planning to have our final exam earlier this week while others want to extend our suffering a wee bit longer. *ubo*gen.psych*ubo* ehe =))

announcement
i need tips for Snakes Level 27 (Dual)!!! di nako makalagpas!!! leche.

oh yea, our exams MIGHT BE cover-to-cover. darneeet. tsss.

2007-05-19T21:24:00.000+08:00

mama && eena are going home on monday. yey :) please pray for a safe trip for them. thanks :)

our summer classes will be finished by friday :) however, internship of 200 hours need to be finished as part of the 12 units for summer. *sigh* what wrong have i committed? T_T

im too lazy to type some more. besides im doing something more important. ehe :)

2007-05-15T17:13:00.000+08:00

oh gawd, i totally spaced. happy mother's day to my mommy :) i greeted her naman eh but i intended to make her an entry but due to my, ehem, PC. (yep, i know i mentioned this over && over again), i guess i didn't want to post any mushy-mushy stuff while in the internet cafe. (ok, konek??haha)

she makes the best meals; she gives the best of care; she shows us selfless love ♥ AND! she's the best woman in the world. of course that's coz im NOT yet officially a woman coz if i was she'll be the second best woman in the world. LOL. kiddin' :) we are all allowed a little egocentrism sometimes :)

regardless, i love you mama ♥ i miss you :)

* i guess ill edit this if i get to post a picture. hehe*

2007-05-15T16:35:00.000+08:00

im "supposed" to do something about my multiply && blogger profile BUT my PC hasn't gotten over its "sucki-ness" yet =(( ok, that is NOT good news. i juss want to keep my blogspot alive that's why even trivial stuff find its way here. haha. i want a new profile. im tired of mine and all its purplish glory. my 'background-finder' (pardon the term; i couldn't figure out anything apt enough) aka eena isn't here yet kaya i need to do some searching myself. hehe.

i am ADDICTED (as in drug addict-addicted-type) to C.S.I. not much of the Las Vegas one but NY and Miami are great :) so sue me for liking it juss now after soo many seasons na. i can't believe we've only just met. haiyyhh :)

*if ever you're wondering, im at an internet cafe AGAIN. ugh.

21 more days :) oh, how i look forward to that day *sigh* (dreamy smile plastered on face) :)

2007-05-14T15:53:00.000+08:00

ok, updates:

*the computer suxx so im at an internet cafe that smells like lemons?? ahaha.
*i went on blog leave coz i felt bad during that time i didn't want to see my blog && posts.
*ive got bangs. (i finally jumped into the bandwagon) (suot shades) LOL.
*2 more weeks of summer classes!!!! :)
*i sucked at my midterms (gotta do well in finals)
*augustine na "pwede" (term of joe) went to villa antonina. computer sucks, hence, no pictures. i have very few though. only the ones ces wants me to post.

*finally...

"there are moments in life when you miss someone soo much that you just want to pack them up from your dreams && hug them for real."

...waaahhh. i miss him :( is there any justice is this world???? HUHU.

2007-04-28T20:47:00.000+08:00

"We were never a couple officially because we both believed that to make it formal would just ruin the whole thing. We rather liked the idea of keeping our perfect relationship burning in our soul."

-The Missing Piece by April Grace Bendita; Young Blood, Inquirer

oh how it sounds so oddly familiar. hehe. from somebody else's point of view, our relationship cannot really be deemed 'perfect'. we argue and fight. we become stubborn. i cry. he does too. but no matter how difficult it could sometimes be and no matter how it hurts, i find its perfection in both our will to make it work.

sabi namen nung minsan, maganda na sigurong hindi "formal". at least, hindi kami pwede mag-"break". haha. tsss.

i ♥ u baby =))

2007-04-27T17:57:00.000+08:00

ok. happy birthday to me. lol.

anyway, most people would call their "latest" birthday as their best birthday ever. well, um, not me. hehe. no, i'm not ungrateful. neither am i unhappy. au contraire, i'm grateful AND happy for everything that happened to me. there are flaws, dissapointments and "low" moments, but i love my life. i love all shitty 17 years of it. haha.

my mom and my sister aren't here to celebrate with me. they called me this morning and if it wasn't for the fact that i just woke up and was still sleepy, i would've cried my eyes out. =(( i miss them terribly. april isn't here too. funny thing, last year, we were together during each other's birthdays. this year, i wasn't there during his birthday and he isn't here for my birthday. hopefully, we'll be spending a lifetime of birthdays together =) i miss you ajie =((

about my day, this is my first birthday that i celebrated during classes. i was greeted by a lot of people and, ehem, it warms my heart. it "somewhat" makes up for my loneliness. hehe.

i made a list last year. i'm making a new one this year: a list of everyone and probably everything i'm thankful for.

Thank You. . .
*papa, for always making me laugh, taking good care of me while mama's away and for the neat stuff you got me today. haha. lavet ;)
*mama & eena, for the gifts that you WILL bring me. haha. (ehem)
*april, for always being there; for the lots of many things you have done, you are doing and will be doing. much love baby! :)
*ces, for the Presto Creams (yellow, not green) and Fita Spreadz. haha. oh, and for doing april's favor. ehe. malanjot ;)
*pharma friends- gia, ila, jiannelle, yaya (wohoo, ID. lol), tubi, cath etc.
*pharma greeters- esp. DOTA boys who "repeatedly" and "loudly" greeted me today hoping for "libre" haha. ASA-ness.
*other greeters =)
*Faber Castell- basta, yun na yon ;)
*McDo, Jollibee, Chowking, Frio, Platters- for lunch every single day of my tiring Pharma life. haha ;)
*basta, everyTHING that helped me with my academics. hehe. btw, i'm also happy coz i was still able to maintain my grades and general average :)

"i learned the truth at seventeen, that love was meant for beauty queens. . ."
-At 17; Sitti-

haha. so true. i AM a beauty queen *ehemm. remember, birthday ko!* and i got all the love in the world. =)

*finally, thank you Lord =))

2007-04-21T20:34:00.000+08:00

"find the person who's willing to walk with you for the rest of your life."

"so many of us fear tomorrow or regret yesterday. me? i won't fear tomorrow if i'd get to be with YOU. & i don't regret yesterday, coz one yesterday, i met YOU." :)

"you learn to like someone when you find out what makes them laugh, but you can never truly love someone until you find out what makes them cry."

**nako. here we go again. a month of boohoo's. first it was me, now it's him. PLEASE MAKE TIME FLY. huhu.

**my Multiply awaits. hehe. click HERE.
i invited everybody i know with an account so please check your mails. thank you. hehe :)

2007-04-20T22:58:00.000+08:00

It's back. My almost-a-year-old DEAD Multiply account is back to life. I still love Blogger but ooh the pressure. Haha. Invite me. I'm clueless. Lol.

I'm right HERE :)

2007-04-19T19:17:00.000+08:00

Just a few pics from my recently concluded trip. I'll probably upload the bulk of them in my soon-to-be-revived Multiply account (inspired by the growing number of Multiply users. Haha) :)

tita's house.

The Bay.
family. well, just some . hehe :)

Golden Gate Bridge.

walking the dogs sa backyard :)

Roozen Garde.
i love these tulips :)
there are different colors pa.

Roozen Garde.

Space Needle, Seattle.

Golden Gate Bridge.
lalanjut. the pose looks familiar. haha :D

Great America.
Roaring Rapids :)
sobrang basa afterwards.

CES! look. hehe :)

Great America.
parang Realto. forgot the name of the ride eh. hehe.
in kewl 3D shades. hehe.
Spongebob SquarePants ung show :)

ces! look. . . MORE! hehe :)

Great America.
Roaring Rapids.

Reno, Nevada.
Silver Legacy Hotel.
*elevator*
sadyang malanjot ang pamilya ko. hehe.

Reno, Nevada.
in front of Peppermill; dinner.

Reno, Nevada.
at the hotel; about to go to Circus, Circus. hehe.

Silver Legacy lobby :)
parang naka-drugs si Eena jan. LOL. click the pic. haha.

Victoria, Canada.
Butchart Gardens.
very pur-ty :)

Hercules, California
we stayed at my tita's house; playing with Casper :)

2007-04-16T16:47:00.000+08:00

yep, yep, back to the sweltering heat of the Philippines. haha. i'm going back to school tomorrow na even if i still have jet lag and all *kuno*. two weeks lang yet there are so many differences between Juan Tamad and Uncle Sam. LOL.

**just a few:

1. the weather. i am so weird. when i was there i wanted to die from the biting cold. the moment i smelled AND felt Philippine air again (and mind you it is different), i wanted to die AGAIN from "raging" heat of the sun.

2. the environment. the philippines is just like the US :) yup, MINUS the "gabon", MINUS the pollution (air, water, sonic, land, LAHAT), MINUS dust, MINUS the heaps of garbage, MINUS. . . wait, i guess not. haha. after all, it wouldn't be dear, dear 'Pinas without the crap. haha.

3. the malls. haha. this is shallow. and i guess it's coz i live in a province and all the good malls are in Manila. BUT still, they have loads of them. i thought that if i worked there i would waste all my money on the malls. everything's eye candy. haha.

4. the freeway and cars. i mentioned this na. no jeeps and trikes and almost everyone has sleek autos to drive. the freeway has a lot of signs and for as long as you have a map, you won't get lost. 'Pinas?? umm. . . next?? hehe :)

5. a lot more that i'm too tired to type. haha.

don't go thinking im gonna be bashing my "Lupang Sinilangan" juss coz of two lousy weeks. (ok, they weren't that lousy) i still love, love, love the Philippines despite all its flaws. aliwa parin keti ada pin :)

yey philippines :)

or was that wow philippines?? whatev.

hmm. and of course "there's always that ONE person" who will make me come back here *ahemmm* :) i saw him na and i am VERY happy :)

P.S. i miss my mom and eena though. yup, even that brat. **who will i torture ayt??haha** i cried btw.. when they took us to the airport. both of them cried too. i look so ridiculous crying there but i didn't care. haha.

2007-04-12T13:43:00.000+08:00

for my baby. . .

**who never fails to tease me every single day
**(BUT!) who also never fails to brighten up my day
**who always puts a smile on my face
**who is a source of my happiness
**who makes sure i'm okay
**who i always want to be happy
**who is turning 17 today (gawd he's old.LOL)
**who kisses my tears away (nyaxx. LOL)
**whose hugs i lurve!
**who showed me "forever" (sana) =)
**who i'm seeing soon (YEY)
**who is leaving soon (BOO) hehe
**who loves me
**(AND!) who i love soooo much :)

. . . HAPPY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY :)

**to the best thing that has ever happened to me**

:))

i love you baby :)

<3

2007-04-09T12:08:00.000+08:00

day here: sunday
time here: 9:09pm

im at seattle. it's even colder here than darn california.

**baby, if you get to read this, please check your mail. i dunno if a computer is available for me on your birthday. advanced happy birthday. i love you. but don't worry, i'll try. i said this all in my e-mail. i miss you.

going home soon. YEY :)

2007-04-08T12:37:00.000+08:00

Gawd i miss him :(

2007-04-06T11:00:00.000+08:00

date here: 040507
time here: 08:15 in the evening

im too tired to make kwento. basta we went to downtown San Francisco and it rocks. i swear. i love it above all the places we've been to :) i love Golden Gate and Pier 39. haha.

still missing him a lot :(

status:
homesick.

2007-04-04T09:36:00.000+08:00

hi guys. all i can say is, i miss my tropical country!!! waah... huhu. i know i complain about the heat and all but sometimes i can't stand the cold here. grabe, laking 'Pinas nga ako. proud of it. haha :D

btw, i have loads of pictures. haha. but i'm too shy to upload them. some, maybe. haha.

*lam niyo naman ako, shy type. hihi*

haiyh... sana, yung pinakanamimiss ko jan sa 'Pinas eh magreply sa mga e-mails ko. T.T

<3u ajie. i miss you :'(

2007-04-01T07:27:00.000+08:00

date here: 033107
time here: 04:30 in the aft :)

we're at california para sa mga nagtatanong. ill be staying here for two weeks tapos uwi na kami ng daddy ko. si eena tsaka si mama forever na dito. haha. hindeh, 1 month daw. ayaw na atang umuwe. it's nice here. walang JEEP at TRIKE! haha. *duh??* yun... i miss 'Pinas. i miss the pollution and i miss knowing where the hell i am! hehe. weird. btw, nakikigamit ako ng computer sa aking pinsan. mabaet. dumudugo na ilong ko kaka-English kaya like i bring like a bucket like everywhere.. haha *ces~mala-jasmine =P* i don't know when i'll be able to use the computer again. siyempre nakakahiya if araw-araw :)

i miss my baby the most :( i hope he always takes care :)

2007-03-30T12:55:00.000+08:00

this is it na talaga. paalam pansamantala Pilipinas. two weeks. tsss.

"humans are weak. but they become strong when they
try to protect someone they love"

-UEKI-
(mr.wil)

2007-03-27T17:50:00.000+08:00

"The supreme happiness in life is the conviction that we are loved-- loved for ourselves, or rather, LOVED in spite of ourselves."

**i love you.

2007-03-25T17:15:00.000+08:00

*nice song. para sa mga emo, tulad ko?? hehe.

Collide
Howie Day

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

2007-03-23T19:01:00.000+08:00

contrary to what a lot of people say, the HEART is not the center of our emotions. (but we do like using it as a "symbol"*see above.ehe*). then there rose the idea of our HYPOTHALAMUS as the source of our feelings. but if one is to be really specific in expressing how much he/she feels for somebody, this emotion is said to be coming from your LIMBIC SYSTEM :)

i love you from the bottom of my LIMBIC SYSTEM.

2007-03-18T14:05:00.000+08:00

i am so confused right now. aside from that, i am physically, emotionally & mentally drained. i feel like any moment i could just breakdown. i don't want to. first of all, i am tired of being weak. i want to be strong... again. like i was... before. i want to be the person who stood by her principles. second, i am being refrained from crying. lastly, i want to do what is right. i am already tarnished beyond repair and i am hurting so many people already. i am so helpless and right now I just want to cry.

everything is futile and in vain. who would have thought, right?

the drama that besets us. tsss.

♥ oh. happy 18th birthday to TINE!!! we miss you budi :) i miss your "endless laugh" haha :D

2007-03-16T23:15:00.000+08:00

hectic. pootek.

these are the times when i ask myself why the hell did i take up Pharmacy. damnit.

monday
*chem lec. quiz. organic rxns part I
*logic quiz. syllogisms.
*HAP quiz. cardiovascular system

tuesday
*pharcal quiz. solving. Latin terms.
*PE finals.

wednesday
*chem lab. FINALS.
*HAP quiz. circulatory system.

thursday
*phar cal quiz. Latin terms.

friday
*chem lec quiz. organic rxns part II

requirements:
*CF ~march 23
*chem i.p. written report ~di ko alam. ask joan. haha.
*english ~march 28
*filipino ~tesis.

FINALS:
march 26-28 ~gen. ed.
march 29-30 ~major subj?? ewan.

i wanna cry.

sorry guyz, wala akong ma-blog. haha. so i made my blog a planner ulet. Ü

+ live life +
+ love life +
+ life is live +

2007-03-15T18:14:00.000+08:00

"there's gotta be more to life, than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me. coz the more that i'm, trippin' out thinkin' there must be more to life. well it's life, but i'm sure, there's gotta be more..."
-more to life; stacie orrico

.iluvu.

this morning i woke up feeling fine. when i got to school my head was throbbing and i wanted to puke. so yun, puke nga. *ew* i went to school at 7 , went home at 8 to rest (coz the stupid clinic wasn't opened yet. di ba nila naisip na pwedeng may magkasakit at 7 in the morning. gawd) and went back to school at 1 to take my long (daw) phar cal quiz. and to my shock and surprise, WALA si mam cae. i went to school for nothing. tsss.

sabi ni ces it's destiny coz she needed my phone to print her pictures for her sugar baby. (meron bang ganon?hehe) so yun, together with april, we had her pictures printed. with ice monster on the side?? haha

:: moments ::
(at fields avenue. the city of angels. haha)
*walking and walking papunta sa Agfa. ces is a few steps ahead of us talking to inna sa cel*
april: eto oh.
*sees ces walking farther and farther away, halos di na siya matanaw)*
april: oh, san pupunta yon??
pae: onga noh. *shouts* CES! ditohhhh!!
*si ces napatingin at na-realize na papunta siya NOWHERE. haha*
~imagine si ces holding her hand up her mouth na parang "oopssss" haha. lafftrip if nakita niyo lang siya :D

(april lifts chair sa ice monster)
april: ang gaan naman nito...
pae & ces: oo nga noh...
*bla, bla, bla*
april: parang KEYCHAIN
ces: ang sama mo!! baket nabuhat mo na ba siya??
pae and april: *puzzled look*
pae: *after a moment* hahahaha :D
~yun pala akala ni ces ang sabi ni april "parang si TJ" LOL.

meron din mga "moments" si april eh pero you have to be there to "get" it. haha. ces was there. she knows. she is a witness to all ka-cornihan. haha :D (hi april! peaceee Ü) ako?? wala noh. astig ako eh. haha :)

i wanna thank Jessica for the pic :) hi jessica! hi kaety! hehe :) they're our korean classmates. *si jessica yung may mataas na grade sa algebra nung first sem. lagpas sa perfect. 110/100*

2007-03-13T17:59:00.000+08:00

this is a template that i tried a few weeks ago. i don't think i want to change my template just yet. i looove my candy-colored stripes. hehe. anyway, tell me what you think about it. thank youuu :)so... remember my "dilemma" kuno dahil yung isa diyan e pupunta somewhere? itago natin ang aalis sa pangalang "april" at itago natin ang destinasyon sa lugar na "hongkong" haha :D so sabi niya pinapasama ako ng mama niya (at this point ang saya dahil gusto akong isama ng mama niya) NGUNIT i don't think (and so does he) my parents are solved on the idea of me going out-of-the-country with people other than them. asa pa ko. haiyh. nevertheless, sana isang araw?? haha. **crossed fingers & toes. paki-cross narin yung mga sa inyo. haha**

ang liwanag naman :)

we had a funny(?) encounter with a few I.S. students. haha. so naive. so INNOCENT. haha :D

2007-03-12T20:52:00.000+08:00

"Isang tanong lang naman yan. Kaya niyo bang mabuhay nang wala ang isa't-isa? Yun yon."

-Pipay's comment :)

*no, i don't know her (Pipay). ehe.

minsan akala mo, oo kaya mo. kasi nga naman sobrang hirap na, sobrang sakit na. lagi ka nalang umiiyak. minsan, di mo maiwasan isipin kung sulit ba lahat ng luha mo para sa kanya. baka naman kase siya wala naman siyang pakelam kung nasasaktan ka niya. tapos hindi mo lubusang maisip na mahal ka pala ng taong nakakasakit sayo. ikaw naman sinusubukan mong i-convince ang sarili mo na, oo, mahal ka pa niya kahit lubos ka nang nasasaktan. kahit na minsan, ang hirap paniwalaan na ang taong nangakong mamahalin ka at nagsabing hinding-hindi ka niya paiiyakin ang taong nagpapaluha sayo at ang taong dumudurog sa puso mo ngayon. ngunit oo, mahal na mahal ka niya.

pero naisip mo, ganun talaga eh. kung hindi mo nararamdaman na nasasaktan ka dahil sa kanya, hindi mo masasabi na talagang mahal mo siya. pero higit sa lahat, ang sukatan ng pagmamahal ay kahit na gaano ka pa inuudyok ng sakit upang bumitaw, andyan ka parin, nagmamahal :)

ako? hindi ko kayang mabuhay nang wala siya.

... yun na yon :)

2007-03-11T13:45:00.000+08:00

more pictures from CAMP night. credits goes to poor girl's multiply ulet. hehe :)

R&B Classics

pharma! :)
go for the RPh title ika nga!!!

gwapo ako :)

gia: pwede na ba ko sa mr. pogi?
pae: um.my lips are sealed.
ces: no comment. ako? kelangan cute. baka makita ni PTJ!
norvic: asa. haha. sali aku!

bird's eye view ba tawag dito? :)

lining up for dinner.
jiannelle, cath, norvic, gia, pae.

gusto kong isulat lahat. haha
: mitch, jab, rechelle, george, eloisa, joan lubdub, jiannelle, cath, norvic:
:mam ic, mam cae, pae, ces:
*otso-otso??haha*

si denvehhhhhr! pinichuran lan ang ulo namin. hmph. hehe.

ala mu.

manel, claire, lorcille, ley, sarah
:)

rechelle, ness, jab, i, ila, ate tracy, danni, mitch. ung kamay?ewan. ehe
:)

i like this. haha :)

2007-03-10T20:41:00.000+08:00

duh? cnung nagsabing gusto namin nagpapa-picture hah???
LOL :D

ngek. haha.
ang serious mo??

sabi ko smile ehhh :P

yan! hehe :)

yellow cab nga pala. hehe.

ayta naman eh :)
ang gulo ng table namen. hehe

with ya(yaya)! hehe :)
hindi ako nang-aape ah. ganun talaga tawag sa kanya. hehe
diba ces? :D

with mam dean (mam cayabyab)!!! :)
the best ang dean namen!!! astig! :)

i heart you Ü

my groupmates for our PE finals.
si frances ung malanjot na naka-palda. :D

"Sugar Mommy ng Taon"
ask her why. hehe
(exs. "libre mo ko nun ah";"bili mo kong *fill in blank with food*")

pharma 1 studes hard at work (kunware) hehe :)
chem lab. stressful!

dagdagan mo pa ng HAP lab! whew!

R&B Classics :)
pae, gia, ya, jiannelle, mine ni gia*hers* (cath). hehe.

camp night :)

haven't posted for a while. too much work to do. natapos din ang camp night. umm, napaka-violent ng reaction ng mga tao: malangi daw. hehe :) pero dahil mahal ko si mam dean, sasabihin ko na masaya naman ako (kunware) hehe :) i'm still waiting for pics from ces's camera.

what's keeping us pharma studes busy is a so-so thesis in filipino, lotsa' quizzes in HAP, organic reactions in chem AND p.e. finals *whew* most fortunately, being the *ehem* dancers we are, nakukuha naman namin ni frances :) *swing & cha-cha ung samen*

"ayoko nga ehhhhh..." haha :D

ikaw ang biik ko. akin ka lang. madamot ako eh :)

thank you for making me smile... as always :)

2007-03-06T21:28:00.000+08:00

i am the SKY.
(darn eeeeet)

shit. i am such a cry baby nowadays. grabeh. over. parang 15 years worth of tears na hindi lumalabas eh ngayong 16 ako dun lumabas.

i'm happy today :) *hmmm* but i'm sad too :( *labo* i can't get over the fuckingly obvious fact that IT CANNOT BE PREVENTED. it will happen. i just have to wait for it to END. (sampung simba). i'll be counting the days. shit to all 30 damn days of a month. (i am terribly sorry for the bad words. overwhelmed eh)

2007-03-05T18:11:00.000+08:00

pictures. pictures. pictures. very mixed-up. pictures from last month to last week to yesterday. try to amuse yourself. hehe :D go ahead... indulge??? LOL.

my "un-filled" s.buxx card :(
4 stickers pa :((

inspired by ate karen :)
orange nails: mine :)
frenched nails: mama
boring nails*LOL*: papa~he took the pic
*eena was asleep. haha. O.P.*

pa-cute after dinner :)

MORE pa-cute after dinner. haha :D

april? pharma? haha :D

eena & me.
our pix are always like that (ung parang washed-out effect) coz we're using the front cam. hehe.

my left contact lens. haha.

my shadow. actually my foot's shadow :)
HAP lab. it's boring me to death. *yawn*

♥ marshamallow.
hehe.

starbucks card.

mr. wil! your brother! haha.

aww. why you sooo sad? :(
hmm...the things he does for me. haha :D

oohh... luv u so much :)

coz he loves playing with his food :)

i am gratified. haha.

2007-03-04T13:39:00.000+08:00

dripping wet (?)
uh-huh, walang usapan na pink. i guess the desire to wear pink flows through our veins. haha :D

haha. if you read ces's blog you would know that this was last friday in our first ever pharma outing. i was surprised by how much people came and it was fun. *thanx kay ate tracy!Ü*

anyway, alam niyo ba na naligo si cesc WITH the pharma boys? ganito yan, edi kumukuha akong baso sa may mini-kitchen namen na malapit sa banyo. at sa aking LABIS na pagkabigla, nag-emerge si ces from the cr kung saan naliligo sina: pawandeep, clint, arvin and kuya mark!!! opo, mga kaibigan. tapos sinabihan pa siya ng. "ces, may shampoo ka pa sa buhok." haha. at bumalik siya sa loob a sinara ko ang pinto upang ipagtakpan sa aming mga inosenteng kaisipan ang kanyang gawain. haha :D MANIWALA PO KAYO. kung dala ko lang ang aking phone noong mga oras na iyon ay sana nakuhanan ko pa siya ng larawan bilang patunay ng aking mga sinasabi. haha.

btw, if this wasn't true, why would ces try to disclaim it so eagerly(?) in her blog?? right, right?? ehe. hmmm. *ces, alam mo ba na nakalimutan ko na pero dahil sinabi mo yun sa blog mo eh bigla kong naalala. hehe*

2007-03-03T00:22:00.000+08:00

he was a boy.
she was a girl.
can i make it any more obvious?
LOL :)
*sk8er boi by avril*

"would it be nice to see the morning, with the one you love the most. would it be nice to say goodnight, to the one you hold so close... to your heart."

"i'd love to see myself one day in the arms of someone who will share his/her life with me selflessly... someday."

-wherever you are

"... and words from our hearts, told only to the wind, felt without being said."

"but there's something about your love that makes me weak and knocks me off my feet."

"i don't want to bore you with it, oh but i love you, i love you, i love you..."

-knocks me off my feet

"who'd have thought she would fall that hard... that deep... that much. she loved him with every fiber of her being, and she never wanted to let him go... ever."

-the world according to me

2007-03-01T15:50:00.000+08:00

for ces. a teen whose heart is beating faster, faster! :)

harlequin
noun
etymology:ultimately from Italian arlecchino, from Middle French Helquin, a demon, 1950
-a character in comedy and pantomime with a shaved head, masked face, variegated tights, and wooden sword.

i even have a picture but it would look stupid here. i found it on Merriam-Webster. wala lang. bigla ko lang naisip. :D

2007-02-28T20:13:00.000+08:00

april. pae.
hehe :)
*corn*

(april, pasalamat ka napa-cute pa kita jan. haha :D biru laaan. <3u)

2007-02-28T19:09:00.000+08:00

♥ pae's planner cum blog :)

thursday
*tesis para sa filipino. tignan ang libro.
*HAP report. needed before next week.
-peptic ulcer
-viral hepatitis
*phar cal assignment
*phar cal quiz. latin terms. see yahoo groups.

friday
*organic chem seatwork. study organic reactions for aromatic hydrocarbons. (epal)
*chem lab i.p. dry bougainvillea petals. prepare report. (next week)
*chem lab. recipe for a burn ointment or shampoo. give organic classification.
*chem lab. buy vanilla ice cream for ice cream analysis (yumÜ). note to self: buy cheap ice cream won't be eating it. (aww.sad)
*cf. assignment. encyclicals.
*logic. quiz. categorical syllogism.
*first pharma outing. taray :)

haiyh. busy-busyhan ako. haha :D and look at me right now. blogging about something stupid ulet. haha. it's weird. humans are rational and they see the error in their ways and yet they don't do a damn thing about it. count me in. haha. live life parehhh! *shot* :p

ooh. i forgot to write this yesterday. jonathan de quiroz is also this year's AUF TOS award for Leadership. haha. also, he is one of Rizal's ten outstanding students of the philippines. not sure about the name of the award. he is sooo smart talaga. *again, hindi ko siya crush*

i found this cool site in the internet where you can "create" your drink from starbucks. basta cute. then you can have it printed on a shirt. siyempre, hanggang pangarap nalang yung shirt coz you order it through the Net which is kinda' hard to deal with. so hanggang wallpaper nalang ako at icons. i'm trying to post an icon of a drink i made but it's too small and the image sucks. yea, yea, stupid nanaman. i get so happy with these kind of stuff. haha :D

"whenever i call you friend, i believe i've come to understand, everywhere we are, you and i were meant to be forever and ever..." :)

2007-02-27T21:18:00.000+08:00

candid-candidan.
it worked well though. hehe.
nice :)

hinahabol kami ng plantsa :D
this is the CAMP corridor kuno. it's in the FIFTH floor.
kaya look at those leg muscles. our gastrocnemius. c'mohhhhn.lol.

so anyway, if it's not obvious to see, pinapakita namin ang aming similar bags. haha. may kuwento ang mga bags na yan: walang cf. kfc. shopping. pera ni april. pink. ikot. balik. haha. basta.

today was recognition day :) i think it's gonna be my last *sniff,sniff* btw, naisip ko lang (this is for all AUF students who know jonathan de quiroz) i guess the reason why he's soo f*cking smart is coz he doesn't feel "obligated" and "tempted" to blog every night about generally stupid ideas like mine. haha. here's a rundown of a "few" of his accolades*hehe*:

*university student council PRESIDENT
*university scholar- the rest of us are just college scholars. the difference? university scholars need to maintain an average of 95 and should not have a grade in a subject lower tha n 87. i am not kidding.
*graduating in their batch as Suma Cum Laude- rank 1, for short.
*oh and btw, he's an ENGINEERING student. oo, hindi business admin lang. kundi ENGINEERING.

you guys can close your mouths now. hehe.

duh? how the hell does he do it? ikaw. oo ikaw, jonathan de quiroz. if ever you get to read this (which i hope you won't EVER), share me a portion of your mega brain or a secret to how you manage to do EVERYTHING. *hail* hehe. di man ako masyadong nabana noh? ;) hindi ganyan talaga when you admire a person's intelligence.

P.S sa mga malisyosong utak diyan ha. hindi ko siya crush. inuunahan ko lang kayo. hehe. :D

P.P.S dapat ilalagay ko sa label ko si 'jonathan de quiroz' pero naisip ko it's too much that i've written half of my entry about him. kulang nalang picture. haha. masyadu neng maswelu :D

P.P.P.S i love YOU even if you're panget. kuripot. masungit. etc. Ü

*gagu. hindi na si jonathan yan ah. O.A. haha.*

2007-02-26T19:06:00.000+08:00

o pharma, ocular visit yan. hindi pictorial. haha :D
~sarah, claire, ley, manel, ila, pae, ces~

this picture was taken two to three weeks ago pa but i just saw it this morning. haha. care of a poor girl's multiply account. haha :D may hawak kaming lollipop ni ces. lol. anyway, we love ocular visits (somehow). we just eat and eat and did i mention eat?? haha.

yea, yea, i sound ok. but i'm not. i'm soo anxious that it's killing me. shit.

2007-02-25T13:04:00.000+08:00

"Minsan gusto na kitang pakawalan. Pero minsan gusto kong makasama ka. Kaya hangga't di ko pa alam kung anong gusto ko, subukan natin... ang magkasama habang buhay."

-Prince Gian; Princess Hours

Could Be Wrong

MYMP

If I could hold your hand
Look into your eyes
Would you try to understand?
The things I'm gonna say

If I could show you boy
How much I feel for you
Would you turn around?
And tell me you feel the same way too

Could be wrong you know
Coming out the blue
I really have to say this
Baby I LOVE YOU

If I could get it right
And tell you face to face
Would you think that I am true?
Believe me when I say

I wanna let you know
I just don’t know the way
I wanna shout it out
Hear me when I say

These blues will always hang around
Until the moment I let it go
And let you know

I wanna let you know
I just don’t know the way
I wanna shout it out
Hear me when I say

*Repeat I to III Stanza

Baby I love you
I wanna let you know
Baby I love you
This you oughta know

2007-02-24T22:06:00.000+08:00

haha. ang panget mo =P

that's what we do, we fight. you tell me when i'm being an arrogant son of a b*tch and i tell you when you're being a pain in the ass- which you are 99% of the time. i'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. you have like a 2-second rebound rate and then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing. i'm saying it's not gonna be easy... it's gonna be really hard. we're gonna have to work at it every day. but i wanna do that coz i want you. i want all of you, you & me... together. every day for the rest . of . my . life .

-The Notebook ♥

natatawa ako. pag sinabi sakin 'to di ko alam if kikiligin ba ko o maiinis pag sinabi sakin 'to. haha. nevertheless the last part is sweet :)

btw, the picture is irrelevant. di naman kami ganyan ka-"brutal". slight lang. haha.

i love you my pain-in-the-ass. ♥

*kidding ha :D*

2007-02-24T00:18:00.000+08:00

pootek. can't sleep. been twisting and turning the whole time. it's all my f*cking fault. damnit. wish i just shut my mouth.

2007-02-23T19:47:00.000+08:00

my birthday's in two months :)
so even if my iPod is already growing molds coz of "under-use" (if there is such a term), I want this pair of earphones. hehe. thank you future-giver-of-this-gift :D

*if you look closely or click for a larger image, it says "just dance" haha. funny. earphones tapos "just dance."

the weekend is one of my favorite 7-letter words. although i don't remember any other 7-letter words i like. hehe. i love fridays and saturdays but i'm not very fond of sundays coz sundays mean the next day would be monday. haha. gulo.

i guess i should be writing sensible stuff on my blog so i can still practice writing even if my course is not relevant to my career of choice. but if i do that... well, tht would be boring. haha. i noticed a lot of my posts have "haha" in them which me makes me sound like lunatic. haha. there it goes again. have you heard that those who use "hehe" are those who like having sex while those who say "haha" are the intellectuals?? so even if i dont' believe in it, it's just to be on the safe side. hehe, este haha :D

i ♥ skinny jeans. my initial reaction at this trend was more on the negative side but i got tired of the usual so i tried it. and it's good i did coz even if they go out of trend (i heard wide-leg trousers are next. ehe), i am not gonna stop wearing them. haha.

*i can't believe im blogging about "fashion" this is so not me*

*regains composure*

i love this week. we had little to do coz like i mentioned, it's after midterms and most of our quizzes are still easy. none of the mind-boggling-eye-"popping"-brain-damaging-&-draining (funny adjective) organic chem quizzes... YET. it's already finals and i REALLY need to make up for the stupidity i 'showcased' for prelims and midterms. haha. so i will TRY, to the best of my reamaining abilities *LOL* to constrain myself from prioritizing blogging over studying. also, to stop my "weekend syndrome"

Weekend Syndrome noun: a syndrome characterized by acute, sometimes chronic laziness due to weekend overdose and constant going out.

haha. don't worry, i made that up. but i really have that. during the weekdays, i formulate my schedule for the weekends and i end up doing two out of the ten things i wanted to accomplish. before i can still do half but i am always struck by laziness and the desire to just stay in bed the whole day or go out. haha.

we have summer classes, have you heard? it sucks to the extremes. friends, join me in mourning over the death of my supposed to be blissful summer of ~~fun~~ and most importantly ~~sleep~~.

2007-02-21T19:03:00.000+08:00

Starbucks. i love.

~starbucks cups(?) filled with clothes tags. started a few years back. ehe. the rightmost is the oldest one (nung ako'y nabana sa Artwork "before"). the leftmost is the latest. still trying to fill it up. haha. the venti one (tallest) is my favorite. ya i know it's mababaw, pero masaya ako jan. haha. *labo:blurred* LOL.

i love istarbuxx sooo mats that i collect 'souveneirs'. (napaka-jologs grabe) i got pamphlets, napkins, cup holders even those parang egg cartons where you bring your drinks pag marami kang binile (kung san nakalagay ung venti sa pic). date lahat nung mga cups kung pwede tinatago ko. tapos tinapon ng mama ko kase andami na daw, pampakalat :( haha. grabe, baduy. *simap balu mo pae*

diba nga i WANT to be a barista there. haha. four years of chemistry and im gonna be a coffee-grinder-slash-frap-maker. haha :D

today sucks coz a lot of our professors didn't attend our class. ya, it's supposed to be a good thing BUT they should have informed us sooner coz it's a waste of time going up five floors for nothing. (Sir Bopi nuko) a lot of our teachers have been ditching us this week porket after midterms.

*btw, "nangonglekta" ako ng mga bloopers ni ces. haha. post them minsan :D

2007-02-19T18:44:00.000+08:00

finally. it's done. i meant HAP. *whew* again, mostly guess work. haha. i'm getting pretty good at it. haha. also, we got our grades in chem this morning. shit. it's not enough. i know it isn't. chem has five freakin' units and if my final exam isn't maayos... nako, nako... die pae. just crawl back and die. huuuu. (isa pa yang HAP na five units din*furious-na-gustong-pumatay-look*)

*belated happy birthday to ILA :) thanks sa McDo treat. ehe :D

there is soooo much anxiety in me. as in overflowing. nakaka-depress. *heavy sigh*

i'm supposed to post a pic of a 'secret' collection. haha. which of course will no longer remain secret but my USB won't read my phone. maybe later? :D

haha. no matter how we think her beautiful blonde head is just full of air inside, she sometimes make sense. this is for CAMZ. ces told me about your 'hater'. can't read your cbox ehh. you're the shit, don't worry :) luv u. Ü

2007-02-18T13:13:00.000+08:00

you know what? i don't wanna turn 17 coz it'll make me think how you're not by my side when i blow my candles *figuratively of course*. i'm gonna MISS YOU soooo much. *sniff.sniff* i wanna sleep the whole time. :'(

2007-02-17T19:36:00.000+08:00

hello :) um. lost for words. hehe. i just like posting a lot.

havaianas

havaianas

havaianas

i love

♥

*dreamy smile on face.lol*

2007-02-16T20:04:00.000+08:00

so, i have one last test to go: the dreaded HAP Lec consisting of umm, basta marameng systems. haha :D

*reaction sa side: eh diba NSTP midterms niyo bukas?
pae: ay ganun?? ou nga pla... teka, subject pala yun? haha. oh ya, i remember, it's ACompleteWasteOfEffort&Energy101. ayt?ayt? lol.

i think i did "fairly well" in my midterms. hindi sila gaanong kabigat at hindi naman ako kinamote gaya nung prelims (lalo na sa chem. nakohh). so thank you Lord for... um... Divine Providence?? hehe :) salamat dahil 90% ng mga hinuhula ko sa exams ay tama :D

hear ye: "God made MEN ~~first~~, then he had a BETTER IDEA."

~it's not how many years are in your life, it's how much life is in those years."

andaming ganito na cute. hehe. nakakabusog :P

2007-02-15T16:31:00.000+08:00

*despite the maderpaking lab manual that needs to be accomplished tomorrow (and believe me, MARAME), here i am, blogging beybeh! (eww.lol)

a dozen of these pretties :)

guess who
^.^

look closely pa :D

hand-sewn all the way. took him forever to make daw. ehe.
*in uniform; pati pink backpack ko anjan*

awww :)

2007-02-14T17:36:00.000+08:00

happy valentine's day guys! ♥

happy 2nd birthday to my LEGOLAS :)

happy 1st birthday to my blog!

legolas :)
hehe.

thank youuuuuuu :)
gago ka talagahhh!!*lol*
kea naman..hmp. ehe.
i<3u.

2007-02-13T17:08:00.000+08:00

*1 year old na blog ko bukas. un lan.

from camz:

"LOVING is holding on even if the pain dares you to let go."

*putang pag-ibig yan.

2007-02-12T18:27:00.000+08:00

this is soo cute. eena found it. ehe:) i know this stuff's kinda' lame na. i'm kinda' after the color and the graphics. ehe :D

*back to the real world, where studying dominates the core of my academic existence*

(does that even make sense?!?) haha..

2007-02-11T21:31:00.000+08:00

i'm not supposed to blog anymore but coz joe posted something about having a lot of similar clothes with me, natawa ako. hehe. oo nga noh. as far as i know 2 sila, a 'just g' brown top and an f&h green top. diba?? hehe. i guess some fuckers, este fockers, dress alike. hehe :D

2007-02-11T12:35:00.000+08:00

*before i even start my "kalbaryo", the blog comes first. hail "THE" blog. haha:)

it's so sad to think of sad thoughts, get it?*xempre* but it's sadder when you think of the happy thoughts tapos it suddenly occurs to you that when you are void of all these memories, it hurts even more thinking that you WERE once happy. i know it's magulo. kahit ako medyo na-confuse sa sinabi ko. hehe :D

anyway, my sister brought home this library book from school called "the ordnary princess". children's book siya so i finished it in one sitting last friday. hehe. so ganito siya, in the kingdom, the seventh daughter of the king and queen is always thought of as the most prettiest and the most perfect of all and when this seventh daughter was born, di nga nagkamali ang mga tao. she had beautiful blonde hair with little curls, big blue eyes and creamy white skin. so pretty nga. during her christening, she was given loads of cool gifts by her fairy godparents *sosy 'tong bata na 'to*. basta may wit, charm, mga iba't-ibang chuvanels. pero the most powerful of her fairy godparents gave her something different. she wished that Amethyst (or Amy), the princess, to be ORDINARY. e di un nga, lumaki si Amy naging mouse-colored na ung hair niya, straight at di curly tulad ng sa mga kapatid niya tapos andami niyang freckles. once, lumayas siya from the palace kase they were expecting her to get married. *kaya lang walang nagpo-propose.tsk2* she worked as a kitchen maid in the palace in a different kingdom and there she met Peregrine na na-inlove sakanya. acually, ito lang ang gusto kong i-highlight, dami ko pang intro. hehe. eto:

nung bumalik na si Amy sa palace para ma-arrange na ang wedding nila, ginawan siya ng portait na medyo exagge, para medyo gumanda siya. hehe. nung pinadala yun kay Peregrine, eto ung sabi niya dun sa letter *ito na talaga, ung sweet. ehe*

"I have hung the painting in one of the state drawing rooms that I hardly ever have to go into, and when I have to I only think how glad I am that you are not a bit like it and that your nsoe still turns up and has many freckles as ever! Darling Amy, don't ever change."

o diba, hehe. sweet:) oo na, medyo corny and to think galing sa children's book. somebody who sees past all your physical attributes and will love you because you're YOU. even if it's just a fairytale, I know that behind all my wistful thinking, something like that still exists in our world, in our real world... sana :)

2007-02-10T19:59:00.000+08:00

kagulowwwh. ehe :D

nakakamiss :(
*"sana maulit muli" plays in the background.lol*

miss youuuuuuu mag-mag!:)
*stressed. whew*

at beatico afterwards:)
thanx kua beatico! hehe

umm.. 1x1 ba 'to??haha
*white background eh*

credits for these pics go to CES & JAD
hehe :)
*magmag~wala lan, display. haha*

oyta katakawan.
*mga P.G.*

kalanjutan FULL MODE. haha.

sigi pahhhh! ehe:)

this portion is brought to you by:
MAGNOLIA "mag-mag" ENRIQUEZ
the official toy of augustine 06
*LOL. peace men*

isang pasada lang:
*ako ay stressed na sa dami ng mga dapat kong gawen at pag-aralan. sana ako'y isali ninyo sa inyong mga dasal na sana ay matugunan ko ang aking tungkulin bilang isang huwarang mag-aaral. salamat. :)

2007-02-08T18:16:00.000+08:00

i managed to post pa?
nakapag-post pa?
mekapag-post ku pa?

*lol. ((kaya naman pala sumesemplang sa mga exams ehh)) :D um, short lan nman. ehe
*ces! upload na your pixx :P

yellow cab.

my wallpaper right now. ehe
from their walls :D

katsura. haha.

P.S.
kasawa na kasi si eena. haha. daddy ko naman :D

2007-02-07T17:20:00.000+08:00

i tried my best. i guess it just wasn't damn good enough. *sigh*

thought for the day?:
"goodbye ~~SCHOLARSHIP~~, hello EXPENSES."

*lol. wala na. mukhang hindi na P60.00 lan ang babayaran ng parents ko per sem. hehe :D

i never thought i could hate a subject as much as i hate ~~organic chem~~right now. argh. hate. hate. hate. *murder*

"it's okay to be vulnerable. life can move you sideways, but it can never take your soul."

*mmh. i guess?

if subjects were people, i'd kill them in this order.
*ranking as of 1st year, 2nd sem*
1. organic chemistry
2. HAP
3. PE

2007-02-06T17:42:00.000+08:00

mmh.. ya i know it looks yummy:)
*yellow cab*

really got no time for long posts but just to disclaim anything "frances" has said, SHE HAS NOTHING TO KEEP MUM ABOUT regarding toto. ok? we had no ~~past~~, we have no ~~present~~ AND we will DEFINITELY have no ~~future~~. NADA. FILCH. hmph :) *scaaaaaaaaaryyyyyy* *brrr*

**chem lab midterms tomorrow + pamatay na chem lec quiz on aromatic hydrocarbons. again: ~~CHEMISTRY~~ SUCKS

happy^3

2007-02-05T13:29:00.000+08:00

ang ganda nohh??? aku gumawa niyan... *big grin*
~i guess it's easy to tell why im happy, is it?~
ikaw kase ehh :D

*pictures! next time. too busy :)
*first "labeled" post because Blogger insists we switch to the new Blogger. stupid idea if you ask me.

mood for the day:
~stressed-slash-soon-to-be-more-stressed. *huhu*

2007-02-04T14:16:00.000+08:00

"we can be anything for one day. so just for today, let us be unafraid of LIFE, unafraid of ~~DEATH~~; unafraid to be HAPPY, to enjoy the BEAUTIFUL, to believe the BEST."

**beer cannot heal the wounds**

"ideals are like stars; you will not succeed in touching them with your hands. but like the seafaring man on the desert of waters, you choose them as your guides, and following them, you will reach your destiny."
:)

bubblegum float.

2007-02-03T19:01:00.000+08:00

i know it's wrong but playing with food is fun. hehe.
*i<3u*

basta. :)
*rocky road*

smc. mcdo:)
*wushu*

serious?
*kuno*

aww... :)
*wink, wink*

nagsasawa na ba kayo? ako ren. haha. promise last na 'to
:D
*adik*

don't forget to throw your trUsh in the trUsh can.. haha:)
*at the same jeep din namin nakita ni ces ang malanjot na kuyang naka-colorless nailpolish*

*world peace*
cesc~the 'sperm cell'. go figure:) haha. MONIQUE!
gia in the background.

girls, go have your hair straightened at the 'straighTINING salon' :)
*is meanness chronic? i think i have it. haha*

april.
he ate McRice AND Milo. um? ew. hehe.
*peace men*

purple background??
*sumakit tiyan ko after drinking soda:(*

bubblegum sprite float:)
that's mine. siningit ni april kamay niya.
*epal.ehe*

if my thoughts were paper, they would be confetti at the moment. scattered :) i call this post... confetti. ehe.

*pyestang mabalacat last night. lotsa' food. lotsa' unknown visitors. ehe
*got home dead-tired. slept late. woke up early. cold morning. brr.
*cwts. waste of time. 'nuff said.
*aerohead apple. became mommy for a moment. haha.
*still in need of a credit card. ONE wristbands:i want. we want. ehe:)
*still sulking over starbuxx thng :(
*loads to do. chem. hap. hap. chem. hap. chem. hap. hap. in short~mga salot sa buhay ko.
*messy room. messy desk. no time for cleaning. (pero may time for internet noh?haha)
*frustrated over non-existent cboxes that pop up once in a while. arghhh.
*wants to be rich (who doesn't?!?)
*i like barney. :) ces... don't be mean. huhu.
*baby... "alam mu na yaaaaan" :) hehe.

2007-02-02T15:03:00.000+08:00

CHEMISTRY SUCKS.

believe me. it is difficult. special mention: organic chem. kahit anong gawin kong aral, meron at meron akong hindi makukuha. *sad* this better be damn worth it. *$60/hour* kamon. samasnan! :)

vandal sa board. hehe:)
napaka-honest ng nagsulat nito..
*ang kumontra nag-aagree!*
(tama ba yun??haha)

wala lang funny. chill in???
thank you kay frances para sa libre
*we snuck them in kase bawal sa loob ng campus. like duh?*

cute. haha. socks with our school shoes :)
clockwise from top:
gia, pae *stripes*, jiannelle, ces
~gusto ni ces kita daw legs niya kaya nagPE shorts siya(lalanjut)~

at the aero-gym while sir precy is discussing. hehe.
(can you spot us?ehe)
remember that quote?
"whenever there is a mirror around, it is almost impossible not to take a look at yourself, even though we all know what we look like."
lol.so true.

umm. caption-less. hehe:)

i'm always photo-blogging coz im running out of worthwhile(?) things to say. haha. so everytime something catches my attention, i take a photo of it... even if it's stupid. hehe.

you complete me :)

2007-02-01T21:10:00.000+08:00

"let my mind breed its most ~~unhappy~~ thoughts..."

SAD NEWS
the starbucks spark hope promo ended yesterday :( i didn't get all 21 stickers. o.a. kase noh? huhu. i need 4 stickers pa kase *cries*

**shin&joan~walang laitan ng dancing skills! hehe. inoffer palang ako ng slot sa dance troupe ehh.. :P

***

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FHATZ!
~sorry po talaga~

photo-blogging2

2007-01-31T17:40:00.000+08:00

mmh. really don't know what to write about. photo-blog nalang. ehe. jus a bunch of pics. mostly eena and me. hamming it up for the cam is our hobby. haha.

free stuffed animals from saisaki. ankyut nila:)
wala pa silang names.
kung kayang jerry, vic, ken at vaness? haha. *baduuuuy*

my feet *silver*. eena's foot *gold*.

i got this specially for joe. got it from the sticks for our PE class. ehe.
*with special participation of the CES~poor one's~ nail. lol.*

duh?? lalanjut?? lol.

oohh... love this :) i could eat it everyday:)

lobby of holiday inn. tired. sleepy. hehe.

dessert buffet at mequeni cafe. sarap:)

i'll always be here, even when the rest of the world can't...

2007-01-29T18:21:00.000+08:00

photo-blogging i guess? hehe.

this is it!
now showing:
"Nang Ako'y Lumuha sa Harap ng Chem Lab"
*lol. haba*

starring:
frances shin "bigas" fabro
~the poor one~

*guys! contest! give me the BEST caption for this pic! go! ung pamatay!*

scandal ni ma. trina dizon! wiweet! hehe

*jus kiddin'. i think that's a gay friend*

my tired hand with matching chipped red nails. lecturing for HAP. syet.

ces.gia. pae. ila's hand? ehe.

ces ulet. gia ulet. pae ulet. ila's hand ulet? lol.

baby cuzz. mmua.
i want a baby brother all of a sudden :(

again and again. ayaw ng iba eh. hehe.

pharma 1 before class pic-taking :)

how-come-i. ehe.

2007-01-28T21:39:00.000+08:00

Love is the smile that shines within my heart
I'm missing you like crazy when we're apart
You give me strength and hope day by day
I write everything I love about you in an essay
Through the highs and lows in life I have you
We'll laugh and cry together and remain true
Seeing you smile, hearing you laugh is my goal
I want to be perfect the way you keep me whole
8 letters, 3 words, I promise till death to us part
I'm loving you each day like I did at the very start
Our hearts intertwined as we connected as one
From that moment, our love story had begun

You touched my heart and you opened my eyes
You made me smile and wiped away my cries
The meaning of happiness I saw in your smile
I want you to be standing at the end of the aisle
You showed me the world and made me realize
I no longer had to hide or even live in disguise
You're the one I admire and want forever here
I love having you close whenever you are near
So I thank you for everything that you've done
Till the end of forever you'll always be my only one
You're the voice in my laugh & the smile on my face
This love i give no one will ever replace.

(8/11/06 10:07:45 AM)

**remember when you sent this to me? i loved it :) now it's for you too.

2007-01-27T09:21:00.000+08:00

i know ill be kinda' busy tonight so i'll post now.

we were dismissed early from our nstp classes (whew!) partly coz we were "evicted" from our room by the students who will take the AUFCAT and as ces mentioned, partly coz our prof realized her subject is boring us ALL to death. hehe. we also saw a lot of freaks we really didn't want to see. ehe.

malapit na tayo maging SOPHIES. farewell ~~freshmen~~. can't wait. =D

see this: i rode a jeepney this morning and i saw a sticker that said "no smoking in ordinance with R.A. #9211" tapos i saw the driver smoking his lungs out. yech. talaga naman oh... pinoy nga. ehe :)

may dvd na ko ng Princess Hours. yey:) thank you april.. hehe. di ko papahiramin si eena! haha. *bad sister* mmh... sigi na nga *baehhhht* :)

you know what, somebody made me realize AGAIN how lucky i am with my family. kaya nga kahit kuripot and daddy ko, strict ang mommy ko at epal si eena, wala na kong hihilingin pa. ehe:)

"maybe Cupid should shoot himself with his own damn arrow... just so he can see how much love hurts."

~o diba? cnend palang ni jordie yan. ehe:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !
*tut~LUL
*lorcille
*audz

stye. haha.

2007-01-25T20:11:00.000+08:00

highlight ng araw *lol*
~at chowking :)
pae, ces, joe-naguusap about blogskins, new entries, etc. nang biglang...
joe: sino si STYE?
pae & ces: *puzzled* *nagtinginan* *halakhak*
ces: ung kuliti ko! (english:stye)
joe: ay ganun ba... kala ko TAO... kase may monthsary na kayo.
*hahaha* =D peace men..

~i want to post pictures na but my cd is still ~~missing~~ eh i need that to install Nokia PC Suite or something. argh.

thought for the day
*o mga bata, pagkaing-utak. ehe*

"if you were paid P1.00 for every kind word you speak, and taken away P1.00 for every unkind word you say... would you then be rich or poor. think about it :) "

nothing else matters. nothing they say does. remember that.

froggie

2007-01-24T18:31:00.000+08:00

syet, galing kung mag-drawing. haha =D

**illustration :)
a pinned-down sedated froggie. yech. although medyo nakakaawa din sila. (awww...)

we were able to dissect our icky ~~frogs~~ today and even if i want to show you our skinned frogs, i don't want to deface my blog with such gory pictures. ew. it's difficult, tiring and the activity took us almost two hrs. just to get the skin off. we're going to continue on monday.

everybody's piling us with work and exams. nakakainis. argh.

joke that made me laugh(^^,)
~corny daw sabi ni ces
tchr: cnu pumatay kay magellan. initials ay LL.
s2dnt: Lito Lapid?
tchr: inuulit pangalan niya.
s2dnt: Lito-Lito?
tchr: wlang "i" pangalan niya.
s2dnt: Lot-Lot?
tchr: mdmi cla.
s2dnt: Lot-Lot & friends?

haha =D

status tired and still broke. *sigh*

holding on.

2007-01-23T18:46:00.000+08:00

"i ~~don't believe~~ that true love means letting go. because true love means loving more than enough... that you would never even think of ~~leaving~~ at all."

~so don't ever, ever claim to love someone unless you think that "forever is not enough" for you to love him/her :)

and so.

2007-01-22T18:07:00.000+08:00

and so.

strawberries and whipped cream,
kisses under the pale lit sky.
warm vanilla sugars,
hugs bringing warmth and tingle.
magnolia-scented air,
warm breaths on her neck.
~~goosebumps~~ on her skin,
traced by frost-bitten fingers.
a dance always remembered...
a dance in a memory in her head.
love that will last all summers and may,
her heart will cherish all her life's
nights and days.
i <3u.>

2007-01-22T17:34:00.000+08:00

highlights *kuno*
*class picture. i wonder how i looked like. haha. may ganito pa pala sa college noh. hehe. we have "pre-picture" pix eh. sa phone ko. but my cd-rom is missing parin kaya can't upload the images. hehe.
*bullshit! haha. i'm not cursing guys. it's the card game which took me quite some time to "gets" hehe.
*Mrs. Platter. im under austerity measures. haiiiiyyyh.
*sucking logic quiz which i flopped dahil sa katangahan. pootek.
*reporting in HAP with quiz afterwards. shit. kung kailan di ako nakikinig dun nagka post-test. nag-sSnake kase eh. hehe. pootek (strike2!)

ces. i don't know what you're feeling and i guess it's really different pag ikaw na mismo ung nakakaexperience. sana you feel better na with each day. cry ka if it makes you feel better but remember may tomorrow pa. malay mo... :)

"...everytime i see you falling, i get down on my knees and pray. i'm waiting for that final moment you, say the words that i can't say."
~Bizaare Love Triangle

broke.

2007-01-21T13:48:00.000+08:00

um, it was another, mmh, "interesting" weekend. i don't know but it's like a must that every week there's a point that it can't always be sunshine and daisies. and i understand that naman eh-completely.but what bothers me is that even if i don't want to get tired of this somewhat routine, weaknesses manifest themselves in all humans. I AM HUMAN. i get hurt too. God knows everything about me and He knows how much i love and value him. i just hope that He give me strength so that i can hold on-literally and figuratively to what we have and to what we promised to have.

i<3u.

~i'm broke. maybe i am impulsive. coz i can't seem to get my hands off things i want. february is roughly a week away pa. kailangan ba mag-Mrs. Platter na muna? hehe.

~i need 6 stickers nalang for my starbuxx card :) till jan.31 nalang. waah.

~"the best date is with someone who can take you anywhere without touching anything but your heart." :)

pae's card Ü

2007-01-19T19:27:00.000+08:00

kewlness beybehhh...Ü (jologs)

first and foremost... happy 17th birthday ces!!! wohoo. ang pakner (jologs ulet) ko sa lahat. . .
*kaingayan
*kalantungan? (innocent look. haha)
*kadaldalan
*kainisan
*ka-lunch-an? haha.
*ka-internet-an. lol
*ka-shopping-an (JUN'S!)
*kapagsistihan (alam mu kaya 'to prances?)
*ka-comment-an (ex. "bat ang haba ng bulsa ni sir raphie??" "andami naman chalk sa palda ni mam, gusto ko tanggalin" and many more! haha.

~hai naku ces. sana matapos natin ang pharmacy. wohoo! :) **inspirations-kua rendell! ryan ace! kua jeffrey! at marami pang iba!

can't wait for your debut! haha.

~credits for the card goes to solomon turiano; archi-1; HAU. tnx solo! wohoo. saya naman. (kea lan exagg naman ung description. haha. sana ganito nalang- unpredictable & mind-spinningly gorgeous. wohoo! taray! haha.

*comment: andaming wohoo ng post ko. haha. wohoo!*

a.u. held the psych fair yesterday and i found out (if ever they're reliable) new? stuff bout me. hear ye:
~according to various psych tests, pae is/ pae has:
*passionate
*possesive (am not!)
*generous (wiweet!)
*ambitious
*stable
*straightforward~what you see is what you get
*repressed hostility
*independent
*suspicious
*ambitious (strike 2! haha. ambisyosa pala ko.)
*possible display of sexuality~i don't really get this
*impulsive (ngek. di totoo 'to)
*obsessive-compulsive
*cautious
*independent (ulet!)
*insightful
*serious
*aloof
*quiet (weh!)
*pre-occupied with past thoughts/events

~bat ganon. para naman akong freak sa mga results na yan.

at random.
isang pasada lang.Ü
padaan.
*i loove watching princess hours :)
*sam is sooo mean sa 'maging sino ka man' hmph.
*i wanna have that hp book asap!
*i realized im still in LOVE with the hot pink razor kahit na medyo laos na. first love never dies. haha. i want one. (sudden urge to sell phone)
*i need a credit card so i can buy "ONE" wristbands that me and ces will flaunt so that rommell will get jealous. haha. so sa mga meron peram naman. wag madamot. haha. pay you nalang nun :)
*malapit na ang summer vacation nila. huhu. yoko. dito ka lang :(

mood for the day:
*half happy/ half bangag Ü